I had a Substack account about a year ago, talking about how starseeds can root themselves in the Earth. A place where I wanted to share my healing journey I’ve had for over 10 years. I talked about mostly energetic and spiritual levels of things. I felt like I had a lot to share at the time. After a short while, I forgot my login and the account was “abandoned” by accident.
Luckily I’ve had those articles saved and I will repost some here.
The thing is, since then there were a few things happened in my life which led me to an “identity crisis”, or more precisely, a “core spiritual belief crisis”. Some things happened made me question my spiritual belief that I have been holding onto for over 10 years.
That shook me big time.
Everything I’d been training myself in, deepening myself into seem to be all lies. Everything I had done up to this point had to stop right there because my core belief was the foundation of EVERYTHING. I could not proceed to writing what I believe in anymore, I held back from the way I did self-healing work. I was so confused. What’s happening to me?
All Started Here.
To give you context. I’d identified myself as a “star being” or people called starseed. I’ve learned lots of energy healing modelities, worked on others and had done so much healing on myself that I even developed my own method of healing my innerchild and shadow work. As I liked to say, I was “put on the training ground by God”, and I still think this is true. I was pretty proud of what I had achieved from the training with God.
Until one day, I started noticing something was guiding me towards Christ, and Christianity.
The “Lost” Starseed.
Memory seems to be pretty vague, but I think it started off with Charlie K’s death and I cried really hard. I had a lot of visions of angels during that time and shortly after, 2 Christian lady from a nearby church knocked on the door to spread the gospel. They gave me a book about the end time before they left. And then a few days later, when I was clearing out some old gaggage in the garage with my dad and bro, I found a dusty carton, in which I saw a bible literally right in front of me buried with piles of decades old text books.
At this point, anyone would have noticed something weird was going on there. I picked up the dusty bible and wiped it clean carefully, without knowing what to do with it yet. I just knew that I couldn’t let it buried back into those old books again.
Well, you think that’s it - not really. I had been thinking about those incidences the next few days, knowing that they were not ‘coincidence’. One day I hopped on the usual bus I caught to work. Never really pay much attention to the road as I usually just do my own thing like watching an interview on YT or listening to a podcast with my eyes closed. That day, I didn’t want to do anything but close my eyes and rest up. On the way was traffic and the bus stopped. I gently opened my eyes to check out where I was, and I immediately saw a church in front of me. I didn’t pay much attention and closed my eyes again. When the bus stopped again, I opened my eyes and saw ANOTHER church right in front of me. ”Well, strange” I thought, but not that strange, and so my eyes closed and the bus kept going. Then it stopped and I opened my eyes, and there was ANOTHER church!
I didn’t know there was so many churches and it got my attention. As I saw the bus was almost at the end of the road, I thought “okay, no more churches” and eyes closed again. When it stopped at the end of the road right at the traffic light. I sat up properly preparing myself to get off the next stop. I looked through the window as I was waiting, and I saw the building name right next to me:
Gospel Piano.
I’ve passed this store for God knows how many times in my lifetime, and it never occurred to me the name of the store is Gospel Piano until now!
These encounters were too obvious for me to ignore. Something was guiding to God - Not just God as I’ve always been working with God (or not?), but the God known in the Christian world.
Since then I’ve started to get very curious and looked up a lot of Christian based content on YT and podcasts. I wanted to explore the Christian world, especially why I was guided to it. Is there something for me? I was (and still am) VERY skeptical about the concept of religion. My experience has told me that all religions are to indoctrinate and manipulate people. I’ve tried to stay away at all cost and never would think I’d be a follower of any kind of religion one day.
The Purpose of Writing Again.
Anyways, I don‘t actually like to talk so much about myself and I think that’s enough to give a context of WHY I am starting to write again - is to document down what I’ve learned from my past as starseed, present as a lost starseed navigating my way in spirituality as a humble student of life and see what will be shaped in the future.
Who knows what I’m going to write here. But I’m not going to think too much about it now. Whatever comes, comes. Go with the flow and see where God leads me.
Bliss,
Peace🪻
8 Jun 2026